Mess o’ Emotion
September 29th, 2004
Man, I’m in a mess of emotions right now. I won’t go into too much detail, but the last few days I’ve been feeling kinda shitty. I was sad and depressed, but I tried not to show it so I wouldn’t make other people feel the same way.
I bought Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind at Best Buy with some friends last night. Watching it always makes me feel better, I have such a strong connection with that movie. I feel for the main character and everything that happens to him. It’s probably one of the only movies that makes me want to cry sometimes. I see myself as Jim Carrey’s character. Maybe it’s one of those times when you feel so strongly about something that you start to see things that aren’t really there, and little details suddenly seem like messages from god. Either way, I don’t care. It makes me feel good, unique, different.
Point is, I’ve made a total mood swing. I feel alive and happy again, but I also feel pathetic for changing my mood to frequently and suddenly for one reason or another…
Fuck it, I like this feeling.
Free your mind man! Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind